change is all around

 As I was looking at the tree in my backyard with it's now vibrant golden leaves, instead of being in awe of its beauty it made me feel a bit melancholy. 
Wasn't it just yesterday that I was eagerly awaiting the white spring blossoms on the naked branches?
I was anxiously keeping my fingers crossed that the brutal winter and ice storm of 2013-14 would spare all the beautiful foliage on our property.
Thankfully it did.
Well, minus a large emerald cedar, 27 boxwoods, and a 18 ft' hornbeam.
All of which needed to be replaced.
It was a brutal winter after all.
But for the most part, the trees were resilient and survived.
I love green leaves and trees.
So I'm sad that it is coming to another end.
I'm not ready to say good-bye.
At least not yet.

I usually embrace this time of year and get really enthusiastic about roasted squash, comfort soups & stews, hot mulled apple cider, cozy sweaters and the beautiful colours of the changing leaves.
But this year I'm having a hard time.
Maybe it's my age.
Is it me or are the seasons flying by even faster?
As you get older the years grow shorter.
Isn't that what they say?

Either way that's how I've been feeling.
And if time is indeed moving faster, I have this constant fear that I'm wasting it.
(I knew I should never have joined facebook & instagram) grrr...
Every day, every minute and every second counts.
I never want to waste any of it and feel so guilty when I do.
For the most part I do try to cram a lot into a day.
Then again, so much of it is spent doing mundane domestic stuff.
I know I could be doing more with my time.
At least more meaningful, creative & fulfilling things.

Autumn is a great time for reflection and also for change.
The leaves are just nature's way of reminding us that change is inevitable.
Time is not to be wasted and taken for grated.

So maybe it's a good thing those leaves are changing and falling...