Thursday, June 05, 2008

missin u

Life as a freelancer can be really great.
Then again it can also be a royal pain in the ass when it comes to trying to make plans.
I had my week all organized with a mix of a nanny looking after Lulu on Monday and my parents were booked for Wednesday and Thursday.
Next Monday I booked the Nanny and next Wed, Thursday with my mom again.
Sounds like a perfect plan.
Bonus I still get to spend Tuesday and Friday with my peanut and work as well.
But yesterday my client told me that today's shoot is a no go due to the possibility of thunder showers.
and could I do Friday instead?
Ah the joys of shooting an outdoor garden story.
My parents couldn't stay in the city on Friday and I couldn't get a hold of the Nanny.
So they offered to take her back to their place last night (which I haven't even seen yet, as they just moved in last week) for a few days.
hmmm.... not a bad idea, and it certainly would help me out in the child care department.
So I packed Lulu's bags and said farewell.
sniff sniff.
Bummer that big daddy is working late tonight and now I have the day "off".
Crazy thing is I actually have no idea what to do with it.
I'm never alone. Now what??
Funny how I felt like I really needed a personal break and some "me time" and the second Lulu is gone I have no idea what to do with myself.
The house just feels so empty and quiet.
My mom offered to keep her until next makes sense, seeing as I'm working and it would save me from having to pay someone.
Plus Lulu LOVES being at my parents.
She has such a blast when she visits them.
But Next week!!!
it seems so long.
I know I will miss her terribly.
I already do and it's not even been a full day.
I'm sure the break will do us all some good (especially big daddy & I re: my last post)
But I love my little lady and I feel so...I don't know.....empty without her.
I'm pathetic.
I should just take advantage of this time and be grateful that I have such great parents that are willing and able to give us a little break.
Okay starting right now I'm going to embrace this time.
Okay, I'll shut up now.


indigo herself said...

it sounds as though you asked the universe for something and it delivered. savour the deluxeness. she will be back before you know it, but in the meantime you can revisit your old self, selves. go to a matinee or visit the spa. so many options.

Mac and Cheese said...

Yup, mani and pedi are the first things that crossed my mind.

amanda said...

You're so sweet. I know what you mean. I cover him with kisses when I get home from the gym - hello, that's an hour away from the kid - totally pathetic.

Enjoy your "me time" - go do something you can't with Lulu. Get a pedicure, have a cocktail, and go see Sex and the City. Then enjoy your free time with big daddy:)

Ms. Porter said...

I know what you mean...although right about now I am sooooooo jealous of you!

Don Mills Diva said...

You better be embracing it right now or I'm going to come over there and embrace it for you...:-)

metro mama said...

Dude! Go see Sex and the City. And Indiana Jones. Come to my brunch. Read some books. Get a mani and pedi. Go out for drinks. Sleep. Need I go on? ;)

Anonymous said...

um yes echoing MM's thoughts above!! Have fun!!

kittenpie said...

I think it's easier if you go away wtihout them than if you are in the space where you are used to seeing them. Then it seems like there is a gap where their face should be, a silence where their voice should be, a million toys that should be played with and shoes that should be worn... A little ghost running through the house. And Pumpkinpie, I should add, has only ever been away for one night!

I do find myself, sometimes, on a day off when I have no plans, wondering what I did with those days before I was a mom?