Monday, May 14, 2007
calgon take me away
Some days with Lulu are more challenging than others.
Today, I had an appointment in the morning and she was great.
Quiet, cute and well behaved.
That's my sweet girl.
Then we went to the studio and she was in high maintenance mode.
I knew she was hungry but she refused to eat a proper lunch (if you call a hand full of rice noodles a proper lunch)
She smashed a glass, had a temper tantrum and wouldn't let me change her diaper.
Oh and got a hold of some sharpies that she refused to surrender, no matter how much I tried to bribe her.
Yes I've actually had to start using bribery tactics already.
Kids and sharpies are a lethal combination (especially in an all white photo studio)
All of this of course took place in front of some work peers, which made me even more tense.
I'm trying my best to be professional and composed while holding a squirming screaming over tired two year old under one arm.
I can't even remember how many times I apologized and or made excuses for her behavior.
"This is new to us" and "she's probably just really tired and hungry-gotta love that low blood sugar thing" or "her teeth are probably bothering her"
and finally "maybe she was possessed by the devil?"
I made a quick exit and begrudgingly drove home.
putting the kibosh on any plans I had to get some things done today.
She wailed most of the way home, announcing that she wants her "daaaaaady" and that
"I not tired!"
eventually passing out five minutes from home.
I tried the ol' car to house transfer, that 99% of the time works, but not today.
almost two hours later, plenty of tears and many long very deep breaths by me, she has finally fallen asleep.
Not every day can be happy happy I realize this.
I also think part of it, is that I am at the end of my rope and need a little alone time.
Being a mother is amazing, but 24/7 gets to you after a while.
everyone needs a break.
even just a hour at the gym would help take the edge off.
She's only two and for the most part is a complete sweet pea, but today she was really pushing my buttons.
Today is also a day where I found myself realllly envying full time working mothers with good child care.
most of the time I'm super grateful for the opportunity to work part time/ free lance and look after Lulu full time.
today...not so much.
is 3 p.m. to early for a vodka martini?